mind says red|heart says green
get it?it's a traffic light :D
but that's truth :(
i just can't find someone to understand this besides Jesus. i mean, i have friends and i know they're there for me. but.. it's just that, i think they can't connect. they won't understand. they'll think i'm over reacting or think that i'm very much serious with it.right? :(
okay..so i feel... well, i really can't describe the way I feel right now.
uhh.. does he like her?! :( T.T
that's the biggest question i have in here.
i just can't answer it.
i sometime want to stop holding on.. but i just can't. there something inside me that doesn't want to!
i'm always thinking of ways so that i won't think of only him. and i'm also making ways to forget him. err. what's the plan of God? I don't really know.
okay..maybe..i'll just update this when this feeling happens again.
June 27, 2009
June 26, 2009
NEW DIVIDE. X)
waaaaaaaaaaa!! we watched "TRANSFORMERS"!! today!!
and i'm so happy with the song!while i'm doing this..i can't stop listening to it! i love LP so much! they make me so happy!
last Monday, I, issa, lynn and ruth went to sm just to eat :P well, we were hungry. Then after eating, we walked through the event center and then we heard the sound of "transformers" so Issa and I planned to invite others to come with us this friday to watch it :D At first, I thought onl a few would come. Fortunately, we were 10!! :D
well, this friday morning.. we were all so excited. we even said that "megatron is outside to fetch us" :)) we were so so so so so excited! And then at last! it's already 1:30!! yay! Issa and ruth went with me at home, so I could leave my bag and their's too. Then, we walked going to sm. Then, we saw everyone else, we bought ticket. But sad thing, Chiara won't go because of her doxology practice :( but I was surprised that Lynn went with us because she said she wasn't interested :P
HAHA! we don't want to hear or see the trailer! Because we think it's a spoiler :P We should be inside the cinema at 2:45. Then, we got there. Good thing, it's exactly some trailers were playing, we thought we might see the ending. and oh yeah, before entering, we bought some popcrns for us to eat. :D But I can't wait for the show to start, so I ate already :D Then there!!!! waaaa!! TRANSFORMERS! err.. i love it so much! the movie is so good! i promise! But i hate those 2 new twins which are idiots :)) not exactly. Too bad, optimus prime died for saving Sam, but too good, Sam sacrificed also to make optimus prime alive again. HAHA! that's so good. :P So many new characters, but I still love my one and only BUMBLEBEE! oh, and I must tell you, he's my boyfriend :)) why not right? he talks, he can sing, he's a radio, he's a car. and most of all, HE'S A ROBOT!HAHA.
So, after that, we went down to eat. But we saw some people watching at the event center, we thought there was artists, we thought wrong, there were dancers. But not typical dancers. They are soooo gooooood!ahaha. We watche one of the contestants then we ate at KFC. There, we saw Karen and Peter, they said they also watched :P Then, after eating we walked through the event center again, then we saw that the next dancer and they looked like jabbawockeez. And guess what? they are copycats (is this the right spelling? :D)
After that, we chose to go home. But Ruth and Issa should go with me coz they left their things at home. But the others, except Hanna and Homer went with me and walk :)) waaa. My dad was their! I didn't know :P so, they stayed outside even my dad told me to let them in, well, it's almost 6:30 so they should go home too. haha. It was fun though, that was my first time going home with them and walking. HAHA.
So there, thanks to ISSA, LYNN, LORJANE, ABBY, RUTH, HANNA, JAKE, RYAN AND HOMER!! I really had fun with you guys :*
I'm eating Cinnabon and Butterscotch! :)) favorite sweets. I mean, ONE of my favorite sweets :P
and i'm so happy with the song!while i'm doing this..i can't stop listening to it! i love LP so much! they make me so happy!
last Monday, I, issa, lynn and ruth went to sm just to eat :P well, we were hungry. Then after eating, we walked through the event center and then we heard the sound of "transformers" so Issa and I planned to invite others to come with us this friday to watch it :D At first, I thought onl a few would come. Fortunately, we were 10!! :D
well, this friday morning.. we were all so excited. we even said that "megatron is outside to fetch us" :)) we were so so so so so excited! And then at last! it's already 1:30!! yay! Issa and ruth went with me at home, so I could leave my bag and their's too. Then, we walked going to sm. Then, we saw everyone else, we bought ticket. But sad thing, Chiara won't go because of her doxology practice :( but I was surprised that Lynn went with us because she said she wasn't interested :P
HAHA! we don't want to hear or see the trailer! Because we think it's a spoiler :P We should be inside the cinema at 2:45. Then, we got there. Good thing, it's exactly some trailers were playing, we thought we might see the ending. and oh yeah, before entering, we bought some popcrns for us to eat. :D But I can't wait for the show to start, so I ate already :D Then there!!!! waaaa!! TRANSFORMERS! err.. i love it so much! the movie is so good! i promise! But i hate those 2 new twins which are idiots :)) not exactly. Too bad, optimus prime died for saving Sam, but too good, Sam sacrificed also to make optimus prime alive again. HAHA! that's so good. :P So many new characters, but I still love my one and only BUMBLEBEE! oh, and I must tell you, he's my boyfriend :)) why not right? he talks, he can sing, he's a radio, he's a car. and most of all, HE'S A ROBOT!HAHA.
So, after that, we went down to eat. But we saw some people watching at the event center, we thought there was artists, we thought wrong, there were dancers. But not typical dancers. They are soooo gooooood!ahaha. We watche one of the contestants then we ate at KFC. There, we saw Karen and Peter, they said they also watched :P Then, after eating we walked through the event center again, then we saw that the next dancer and they looked like jabbawockeez. And guess what? they are copycats (is this the right spelling? :D)
After that, we chose to go home. But Ruth and Issa should go with me coz they left their things at home. But the others, except Hanna and Homer went with me and walk :)) waaa. My dad was their! I didn't know :P so, they stayed outside even my dad told me to let them in, well, it's almost 6:30 so they should go home too. haha. It was fun though, that was my first time going home with them and walking. HAHA.
So there, thanks to ISSA, LYNN, LORJANE, ABBY, RUTH, HANNA, JAKE, RYAN AND HOMER!! I really had fun with you guys :*
I'm eating Cinnabon and Butterscotch! :)) favorite sweets. I mean, ONE of my favorite sweets :P
June 24, 2009
Something happened to my heart :(
okay.. so I just found that video because I was searching for the lyrics, but then, I found that one. It's a song from Boys Before Flowers titled as "Something Happened to my Heart" but someone made a remake of it. I mean, not exactly english version, but she changed the lyrics into english which is almost the same to the meaning of the Korean version and it's really so amazing that she made that! I mean, it's hard to make it in english and then it's in the timing.
But.. the lyrics in there? that's what I wanted to tell to him :( err. EXACTLY!!THE SAME!!
June 21, 2009
“Sirang Pag-ibig”
"Sirang Pag-ibig"
Sa aking buhay, may isang araw
na pangyayaring hindi pumapanaw
at patuloy na tumatatak ang pait
sa aking puso’t isipa’y dumidikit.
Ako’y musmos pa lamang
nang matamo ko’y isang
napakalagim na karanasan
na parang isang tao’y lumisan.
May isang karaniwang gabi
nang kami’y nakahiga’t matutulog na
di-inaasahang tanong mula sa aking ina
“saan ka?kay papa?o kay mama?”
Tugon ko ma’y sa piling ng aking ama
‘di ko malinaw ang rason sa pagkwestyon nya.
Basta’t batid ko lang naman
Sila’y mahal kong pareha.
Sa katreng matigas, di ako makatiis
kaya’t para lumisan ang aking inis
pinapatong niya ako sa kanyang katawan
at sabay paypay para ako’y di mainitan.
Kinabukasan, inakalang ordinaryong umaga
habang malugod na naglalaro kami ni kuya,
ama ko nama’y timik na nagplaplantsa
at aking ina’t nakababatang kapatid ay himlay pa.
Tuloy-tuloy lang kami sa aming gawain
maya-maya pa’y gising na ang aking ina
panandaliang lumabas ng silid niya
at agad din syang bumalik roon
Sa kanyang muling paglabas sa sala
kagulat-gulat ang lulan niya
bitbit niya’y isang patalim
kami’y walang ideya sa gagawin.
Tumagaktak, dumaloy, pumatak, umagos
ang aming luha na ‘di matapos-tapos
nadinig ko’y wala mula sa kanilang bibig
palatandaang, sira na ang pag-ibig.
Sa aking buhay, may isang araw
na pangyayaring hindi pumapanaw
at patuloy na tumatatak ang pait
sa aking puso’t isipa’y dumidikit.
Ako’y musmos pa lamang
nang matamo ko’y isang
napakalagim na karanasan
na parang isang tao’y lumisan.
May isang karaniwang gabi
nang kami’y nakahiga’t matutulog na
di-inaasahang tanong mula sa aking ina
“saan ka?kay papa?o kay mama?”
Tugon ko ma’y sa piling ng aking ama
‘di ko malinaw ang rason sa pagkwestyon nya.
Basta’t batid ko lang naman
Sila’y mahal kong pareha.
Sa katreng matigas, di ako makatiis
kaya’t para lumisan ang aking inis
pinapatong niya ako sa kanyang katawan
at sabay paypay para ako’y di mainitan.
Kinabukasan, inakalang ordinaryong umaga
habang malugod na naglalaro kami ni kuya,
ama ko nama’y timik na nagplaplantsa
at aking ina’t nakababatang kapatid ay himlay pa.
Tuloy-tuloy lang kami sa aming gawain
maya-maya pa’y gising na ang aking ina
panandaliang lumabas ng silid niya
at agad din syang bumalik roon
Sa kanyang muling paglabas sa sala
kagulat-gulat ang lulan niya
bitbit niya’y isang patalim
kami’y walang ideya sa gagawin.
Tumagaktak, dumaloy, pumatak, umagos
ang aming luha na ‘di matapos-tapos
nadinig ko’y wala mula sa kanilang bibig
palatandaang, sira na ang pag-ibig.
oh.ayan naman yung pinasa kong tula sa filipino class :)) pansin niyo?puro bigong pag-ibig tula ko. :)))) broken hearted daw kasi akoooo. OKEiiii! HAHAHA. errr.. love na love ko yung last stanza :D
June 19, 2009
"Kaya ko pa ba?"
"Kaya ko pa ba?"
Kay tagal ko na itong kinikimkim
damdamin ko'y patuloy na dumidilim
pakiramdam ko'y bombang sumasbog
puso ko'y para ba'y nagiging bubog
Panlabas ko mang anyoy mukhang maligaya,
di man nagpapakita luha sa aking mga mata,
ngunit pag iyong natanaw ang tunay na ako
makikita mo, puso ko'y patuloy na dumurugo.
Di ko inaasahan na ika'y aking iibigin
hinuha ko namang ika'y malilimutan rin
ngunit, ano ba itong aking natamo?
hinagpis at lumbay lamang ang ibinigay mo.
Inisipko minsan na ipahiyag na sa'yo
ngunit lakas ng loob ay kulang ako
at ideya ko 'y wala sa'yong magiging reaksyon
ano kaya iyong maaring desisyon?
Sikreto ko sayo'y ipinaparamdam naman
manhid ka ba? o sa pag-ibig ay walang kaalaman
'di mo ba talaga ramdam handog na pagmamahal?
o ika'y nagpapanggap na walang alam?
Baka naman puso mo'y inialay na sa iba
at ang akin naman ay dinukot mo na
tanong ko'y bakit sa'yo pa ito dumidikit?
Maaaring ito'y durog-durog na kung makamtan ulit.
Hanggang ngayon ako pa rin ay nagdurusa
kakayanin pa kaya ng pasensya na umasa?
Makakya ko pa kaya ang mga sugat?
o patuloy ko nang ibabaon sa limot ang lahat?
Kay daming tanong ng aking isipan
ngunit sa simpleng ngiti mo ito'y lumilisan.
Sa paarang ano kita malilimot?
Kung sa aking mundo'y ikay umiikot.
Mahal na mahal talaga kita
sana'y makita na iyan ng iyong mga mata
dahil masyado na akong nasaktan
at di ko alam kung kaya ko pa ba.
Ayan :)) magtatagalog muna ako. Yung tula tagalog eh :)) okay, wala lang. Napagawa ako bigla ng tula. Baliw kasi ako :D well, may assignment kasi kami kahapon sa filipino. Gumawa daw ng tula. Tapos eto, dahil wala naman din akong magawa. Nagdecide akong gumawa na lang :D
Kay tagal ko na itong kinikimkim
damdamin ko'y patuloy na dumidilim
pakiramdam ko'y bombang sumasbog
puso ko'y para ba'y nagiging bubog
Panlabas ko mang anyoy mukhang maligaya,
di man nagpapakita luha sa aking mga mata,
ngunit pag iyong natanaw ang tunay na ako
makikita mo, puso ko'y patuloy na dumurugo.
Di ko inaasahan na ika'y aking iibigin
hinuha ko namang ika'y malilimutan rin
ngunit, ano ba itong aking natamo?
hinagpis at lumbay lamang ang ibinigay mo.
Inisipko minsan na ipahiyag na sa'yo
ngunit lakas ng loob ay kulang ako
at ideya ko 'y wala sa'yong magiging reaksyon
ano kaya iyong maaring desisyon?
Sikreto ko sayo'y ipinaparamdam naman
manhid ka ba? o sa pag-ibig ay walang kaalaman
'di mo ba talaga ramdam handog na pagmamahal?
o ika'y nagpapanggap na walang alam?
Baka naman puso mo'y inialay na sa iba
at ang akin naman ay dinukot mo na
tanong ko'y bakit sa'yo pa ito dumidikit?
Maaaring ito'y durog-durog na kung makamtan ulit.
Hanggang ngayon ako pa rin ay nagdurusa
kakayanin pa kaya ng pasensya na umasa?
Makakya ko pa kaya ang mga sugat?
o patuloy ko nang ibabaon sa limot ang lahat?
Kay daming tanong ng aking isipan
ngunit sa simpleng ngiti mo ito'y lumilisan.
Sa paarang ano kita malilimot?
Kung sa aking mundo'y ikay umiikot.
Mahal na mahal talaga kita
sana'y makita na iyan ng iyong mga mata
dahil masyado na akong nasaktan
at di ko alam kung kaya ko pa ba.
Ayan :)) magtatagalog muna ako. Yung tula tagalog eh :)) okay, wala lang. Napagawa ako bigla ng tula. Baliw kasi ako :D well, may assignment kasi kami kahapon sa filipino. Gumawa daw ng tula. Tapos eto, dahil wala naman din akong magawa. Nagdecide akong gumawa na lang :D
June 09, 2009
HeLLo BLoG! :)
HeLLo BLoG! :)
another post huh??but i'm still lazy to upload the pics in my previous post :D
Maybe i'll do it next year :)) okay..kidding. I really don't know when..
Okay.. I want to focus with what I'm doing these past few days.. Last last week, I think, I finished downloading all the episodes of BBF. And now, when I saw at ABS-CBN that they will be airing (again) Hana Kimi.. I was interested and started downloading it. So now I'm about to begin to watch episode 5 and already downloaded 8 episodes. So after Hana Kimi, I think I'll be getting "Love or Bread". It's another taiwanese drama which will be aired at abs-cbn. Starring Ariel Lin and Joe Cheng. :) With what I'm doing, I always sleep at around 3am or maybe 4am. But when I force myself to sleep early.. I can't that's why sometimes I just watch BBF or Hana Kimi. And then.. when I wake up.. I directly open my PC and keep downloading :D So my brother often gets mad at me ;)
And another thing, I downloaded a software that will make a video with high quality. Because I realized that the highest resolution that the psp can manage is 480x267. And most of the videos I got are over the limited resolution. So I've decided to download FLV formats and convert it with the software instead of downloading mp4 format.
So..that's it :)
another post huh??but i'm still lazy to upload the pics in my previous post :D
Maybe i'll do it next year :)) okay..kidding. I really don't know when..
Okay.. I want to focus with what I'm doing these past few days.. Last last week, I think, I finished downloading all the episodes of BBF. And now, when I saw at ABS-CBN that they will be airing (again) Hana Kimi.. I was interested and started downloading it. So now I'm about to begin to watch episode 5 and already downloaded 8 episodes. So after Hana Kimi, I think I'll be getting "Love or Bread". It's another taiwanese drama which will be aired at abs-cbn. Starring Ariel Lin and Joe Cheng. :) With what I'm doing, I always sleep at around 3am or maybe 4am. But when I force myself to sleep early.. I can't that's why sometimes I just watch BBF or Hana Kimi. And then.. when I wake up.. I directly open my PC and keep downloading :D So my brother often gets mad at me ;)
And another thing, I downloaded a software that will make a video with high quality. Because I realized that the highest resolution that the psp can manage is 480x267. And most of the videos I got are over the limited resolution. So I've decided to download FLV formats and convert it with the software instead of downloading mp4 format.
So..that's it :)
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